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Hi there!

I have access to a computer today that can access my website so I'll give you an update on what I've been experiencing.

Looking back at my last post dated December 5, 2009, I'm wondering if I lost some content ... not sure why I dated it December 5th unless that's when I was able to post it ...

So, update No. 1 ... I'm noticing more and more that my memory is changing ... in that I don't re-call or remember things like I used to ... More case in point,  I can check the TV guide or some radio station for upcoming programs to take in ... like in a few hours time ... and it will only be the next day or something reminding me hours or days later that I had fully intended to watch/listen to that particular program .... but because I'm living in the moment, if "the Plan to do so" does not reappear in the moment the program is scheduled ... I'm usually totally oblivious to what I'm missing out on from this previous 'Plan' ... Am I making sense? ... So clearly, I'm no longer remembering a "Past" ... and I'm no longer being drawn into the "Future" ... which simply leaves ... and means ... I'm living more and more in the "Present"!

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Audrey continues:

If you haven't already done so, you've got to listen to Nassim Haramein's interview at NewRealities.com ... entitled Black Hole Physics to Power the World.  Nassim is a physicist who won a First Paper award at a Physics conference in Belgium in 2009 for his black hole theory. If you're wondering what the hell this has to do with you ... with you and me ... his theory speaks directly to my spiritual, evolutionary experience! There's so much to say on this subject .....

Simply put, Nassim has discovered that everything has a black holes that is the source of its creation ...  the black hole is the source of creation energy .... I directly experienced my own "black hole" and wrote about it on this website some time back (if I have time I'll insert a link) ... I experienced myself falling into this 'black hole' and discovered the vastness of the Void. This black hole is 'Zero Point Energy' (I believe, have to do more research) ... again, that boundless, limitless energy from which all things are created. That ... this is how we become sovereign ... through utilization of our own black hole boundless, source energy. THIS is how and why there is absolute abundance, energy, space for every living Being and thing on the Planet. We are self-sustaining ... we create what we need from our own source ... from our own black hole. Once we become One in consciousness with this Source, there will be no distance or lag time ... no Time, period ... between a desire and its manifestation ... hence, instant manifestation. This also explains how we teleport, etc. (Nassim goes into this in his interview, and it makes perfect sense to me!) I'm personally experimenting with teleporting or bi-locating to New York (visited in September) ... to be witnessed by a particular person in a particular setting ... sooo much fun!

Check it out for yourself ... Nassim's interview, that is, and how it relates to your sense of your Self and creator ability.

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Audrey continues:

Ever since Boxing Day, December 26, 2009 ... I've been utterly ... utterly ... inward (but obviously starting to resurface because I'm writing this!). Lisa Renee ... thank God for Lisa Renee ... speaks of what we are experiencing in this down time in her January 2010 article. She speaks of the 'factory reset' we've been experiencing and this too makes sense of my experience to the point where it explains why I felt the need to 'reset' my ancient laptop's internet function to 'default' sometime in the last two weeks ... all these little pointers are confirmation that we're on the correct path.

A little bit more about what the 'factory reset' has been about for me .... it's been about resetting my emotional body to be congruent with the Soul which is inSouling the physical. If there's one message I've received over and over again since the end of December it is ... be conscious of your emotional state and do whatever you can to raise it to as high a frequency as you can. Again, sooooo much to say .....

At one point in the last two weeks I experienced the return of a Power Animal that I worked with extensively at the beginning of my conscious awakening twenty-some years ago. This Power Animal ... this state of Being ... is all about .... being capable, certain, strong, focused, commanding ... to this, I've been prompted to add the feeling of happiness ... to continually remind myself of what it feels like to be happy ... by purposefully recalling times when I experienced happiness. So my days have been spent continually bringing up the feeling of happiness and combining it with the feelings evoked in identifying with my Power Animal.

What I believe is happening ... actually, I've had confirmation of it ... (one of the sources being The Guardians that Veronica Torres is beginning to bring through ... see transcript of December 12, 2009 channel) ... what is happening is the heart chakra and solar plexus chakra are being balanced with each other ... love and power coming into balance.

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Audrey adds some brief comments on various matters:

January 8/9, 2010 I experienced 'Kundalini flu' ... a time when adjustments were being made to my base and second chakra which left me experiencing abdominal cramps and a day of feeling as weak as a baby ... bouncing fully back the next day to top form.

of course, Lani Calkin's December 31, 2010 message continues to deliver a wallop of energy and transformation each time I listen to or read it.

I really, really intend for my computer issue to straighten itself out so I can keep you more up to date on what's happening since we REALLY are in a NEW place/space.

With respect to the Haiti earthquake ... the only think I've read about it that makes sense to me is that these souls may be finally clearing the lack and limitation programs running on the Planet ... so many of us 'Lightworkers' have been working so long and hard to clear it ... maybe ... just maybe ... this is the physical manifestation of the clearing from the body of Earth and our physical cells. So it is in deep gratitude that I send my Blessings to Haiti and her people.

Audrey ends it with:

Wouldn't this be an absolutely wonderful time for our Galactic and Star neighbours to make an appearance   using their advanced technology to assist Humankind in Haiti? Wouldn't there be such an expression of good will engender in mankind toward them for their assistance at this time of overwhelming catastrophe?

Till I can speak to you again .... be well.

Still experiencing difficulty accessing my website to update it.

November 11, 2009

Halleluleah!

I've not been able to access my website for about a month now. I hear I'm not the only one experiencing down time.

So let me catch you up on my experiences with the incoming energy.

In hindsight it was amazing to receive such a definitive sense of ending as I wrote about in my last post of September 7, 2009 ... two days prior to 9-9-9.

The night of October 14/15 I had a dream in which I experienced an overall sense of Joy and elation … I had arrived! In the dream I was walking the halls of a University in Beijing, China! During the dream, in a semi-lucid state, I kept reminding myself that I KNEW of two ways to get there ... or get back there.

This definitely is confirmation that I have indeed ended one phase of my life ... my life in the old Earth paradigm ... and have begun a new one with the University in Beijing … whatever that signifies (someplace totally foreign, for one thing) … representing my new place of residence in the New Earth.

The week of October 22 to 29^th was a week spent in physical bliss … so much so that for the most part all I wanted to do was just BE … to fully experience it, it was so delicious … so a lot of time was spent back and forth between the computer and curled up in bed with time out for eating … and, I was okay with that … the ego/mind … the taskmaster in charge of my survival … didn’t fight it too much.

At the end of October it was back to the corporate world for another stint of 3Dism. I’m learning to not take it personal … LOL … At least, now there is a sense that at any moment I'll be getting my new marching orders.

The night of October 31/November 1 I experienced a further opening of the throat chakra … but as I sit here typing this  … the words “insoulment” of the throat chakra popped in … so … All right!

I've noticed my sense of Universal awareness is really being sparked, and I’ve been enjoying listening to Dr. Steven Greer and guests on World Puja.

And, in case you’ve missed it, we’ve entered the Sixth Night of the Galactic Cycle, in Mayan Calendar terms, on November 8, 2009.

Dr. Carl Johan Calleman’s recent articles are a must to read in terms of his research and insights into the information the Mayan Calendar provides us.

Well … I can’t say this is the most flowing of articles I’ve ever written … but that’s okay. I have slight headache as I sit here in the energy of the 11-11-11.

Just good to be back.

I’ll end it there for today … I think … I still have to work with my ancient little laptop to post this … that could take awhile.

Audrey says:

I had an epiphany this morning ... an important one, however obvious ...

I've been questioning myself a lot lately as to why I haven't been successful in life ... feeling sad and wondering why me ... for all my striving ... have I always seemingly failed ... wondering why I've never managed to create anything ... succeed at anything.

... Then this morning after waking up feeling slightly depressed (something I haven't felt in a long time) ... I got it ... I realized that my Soul's path up until now has been about taking apart, tearing down, dismantling the old paradigm ... it has not been about creating and building ... I came in with THIS as my mission!

I also realized that this "tearing down" phase of my life ... this particular mission ... is wrapping up ... probably coming to completion with the 9-9-9 energies.

No wonder me and other lightworkers and starseeds have not seen our wishes and desires fulfilled in the physical ... we were in "tear-down", "dismantling" mode.

So if I've reached the end of "tear-down" ... could it be I'll now begin creating and manifesting?

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  12/Understanding
Sacred Sun Sign: Storm/Cauac
Trecena:  Star/Lamat

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Audrey says:

Hello there! Are we having fun yet?!

What a time its been since my last post.

In my first forays into the realm of relationship, I've failed miserably (or succeeded spectacularly ... depending on how you look at it!) ... with one brief encounter with a member of the opposite sex bringing up a lifetime of feminine/masculine imbalance and wounding to be healed and integrated.

I so identify with Maureen Moss' August 28, 2009 article, God Will Use Anything, Part II, wherein she says in part:

"...Right relationship to experience is the only way to unlock ancient, damaging belief systems and patterns of behavior that will end personal, ancestral and collective suffering once and for all and lay in the path for our grand ascension. We were the ones sent in for this hero's journey....

Vital for understanding, is that the Universe and our Souls only give us experiences that we desire for awakening be they from an unconscious or conscious state of mind....

Truth is, neither you nor I always understand what we truly ask for or desire when we make a plea to the Universe, or quietly make a wish. Our request or desire typically comes from the longings and fantasies of the surface mind, but the Soul catches it and course corrects it, for our highest good, not our deepest longings.

A typical request sent out from us is usually one that asks for an experience to be loved, to be at peace, to get clear, to have abundance, or to know the truth about God.

Request sent, experience in motion. Rarely however, does the experience show up harmonious to what our minds had in mind. Always does the experience carry within it the gift that we deeply need to fully awaken. Unfortunately the mind of humankind most often uses experience for storytelling and identification purposes, rarely as an opportunity to recover mistaken identities and authentic natures. But now we must.

What we are sent, or magnetize in the form of experience, is a prop -- be it human or otherwise, to bring us closer to who we really are. The Universe and our Souls know exactly what we need to meet up and blend with our authentic selves. Both love us enough to send repeat experiences, in different forms, until we get there. Please consider that for a moment. Getting the point of experience will make all the difference in the world to you.

As we get closer and closer to the end of a long and suffering age and enter into a highly upgraded, Divinely civilized and loving new age, we will come upon an energetic entrance gate, if you will.

Standing at that gate will be our Higher Selves. The job of our Higher Selves, at that point, is to assure that we are very close to our authentic and Divine natures and that our lower selves' shadows have lightened up, by way of experience and authenticity, not intellect. We are each going to be made accountable for holding up our end of the Light in clarity, as we enter new dimensions and merge with parallel realities.

The fastest way to insure that this be made so is for our very own individuated Souls, which are connected to the One God Soul, to be able to use our personal experiences as a means to that end...."

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Audrey continues:

Maureen then goes on to share how the Universe used her plea for a specific experience to bring her ever closer to her authentic and Divine Nature ... much like how my first encounter with the opposite sex in my desire for sacred relationship seems to have fulfilled that very exact same purpose.

I spent days in turmoil and grief but kept my head down and my focus inward until I was able gain clarity and able to bring conscious healing and resolution to what had so spectacularly "backfired" in my face.

The conclusion I reached from my experience is that the inner union between the masculine and feminine is not yet complete ... I sense it's not really all that personal in that those energies are still working toward unification on the Planet. I quote from Lisa Renee's September article, Attunement to Alignment:

"...The 999 Window

This upcoming window is impactful to the revelation and activation of masculine energetic principles and its related history of the patriarchal domination of our species and planet....

According to the Guardians this opening is critical to complete a sonic pillar of masculine principled harmonics on the right side of our being. The base 12 core manifestation template (blueprint) is contained within the Holographic Fractal Universe, from the smallest particle to the largest planet and the Universal matrix itself. The right side template has a harmonic structure they refer to as 3-6-9 and this activation on 999 is transmitting a needed harmonic code to complete the “ROD” that exists within the balanced male principle. This “Universal Rod” is the male principle of the Sonic Pillar that connects a bridge between our Universal Matrix to that which is the Andromedan Matrix. This transmission also begins the activation of the masculine principle to be able to access the “Rod” as an embodiment so that the Ascension Frequencies can be anchored into physical matter. As the female principle is the “Staff” that connects to the Universal frequencies, it’s the male as the “Rod” that anchors it on the earth. Hence, Heaven meets Earth is ultimately the divine marriage of our masculine and feminine principles as fully embodied.

Given all the shifting around the male energies over the past months, this one is really exciting!

Even though this has been a rough time for some of us, there is a great feeling of optimism and support in a whole new way. There are levels of Unity Star Families here to support our freedom and liberation more than ever before. The Mapmaker Starseeds have been working very hard and have accomplished much in building the necessary transit fields, transducer and step down fields to allow these new orbits and code circuitry to exist...."

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Audrey continues:

So, really, all I was doing in engaging the masculine in the physical was helping to build "the necessary transit fields, transducer and step down fields to allow these new orbits and code circuitry to exist" as we approach the 999 Window.

Although the timing hasn't been right to enter into sacred union with the masculine, I yearn for this more than ever!

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Audrey divulges more:

The other night/morning I had a dream in which the floors of my house were about to collapse! ... and I was urging everyone (family members) to get out! ... to grab what they wanted to take with them and get out. I too found myself scurrying about gathering up things and going back once or twice in order to gather up more things before the house collapsed!

Both Lani Calkin and Lisa Renee have spoken of this "collapse" or "disconnecting" process in the last week. From Lisa Renee:

"...Becoming Unhinged

The current ordered chaos and dimensional collapse may feel quite disturbing, yet it is a necessary part of the dismantling of the core foundation of corruption inherent in this reality system. I have observed so many of us reaching an inexpressible place, only something to be described as between a rock and a hard place. It is similar to feeling squeezed like you are ready to pop, ready to explode. And many people have been exploding, mentally, emotionally and physically. I have seen clearly how when the consciousness fields collapse, (as they are now) like the mind control systems, the emotional body goes into spasms while the mental body starts looping obsessively. This cycle creates anxiety which if unchecked will evolve into addiction behaviors. Addiction is generally used as a coping or escape mechanism, so be acutely aware of your triggers as they happen and do not engage with the behavior. Work your tools and call your ascension buddy.

Many times when you feel ready to pop, you shift to the next level. We are well aware by now that this is how spirit gets the bodies to shift molecularly so it can connect deeper with the body If you are in that stage you either participate willingly and surrender or find yourself yelling “uncle” to anyone that will listen. These energies are intense and even more amplified without a context or tools. This is why working your ascension tools is imperative now. We can get beyond this with informed awareness, consistency and reprogramming.

As we are becoming unhinged from certain collective consciousness enslavement systems, some of us have had very physical symptoms. The 2009 5D Still Point alignment upgrade as well as the dismantling of the nephilim reversal gridwork is something I will discuss more in our monthly teleconference. These fields are very toxic and released loads of negativity to be transmuted. Since all of this is dealing with mental control projection fields, our solar plexus (personal power center) area has been very troubled lately. The metropolis areas with larger populations are generally more challenging. Burning, nausea, digestive problems and vomiting are common. Since a lot of these grids deal with gender separation issues, female and male reproductive organs have also been problematic. Try to get in water and commune with nature as you can. Take good care of your body by listening and paying attention to what you need.

We are becoming unhinged from it all, and I have certainly noted this creates varying degrees of panic and anxiety as this happens. It is all going so that all that is left is our Universality. Our Oneness with it ALL...."

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Audrey confesses:

Speaking of addiction and addictive behaviours, yesterday I found myself buying a 6 pack of beer to help me through the long weekend! LOL I rarely drink! Lisa's comments immediately came to mind so although I DID enjoy a beer last night, I did it consciously! LOL

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Audrey adds:

Now, Lani Calkin's comments about "disconnecting" from the old paradigm from her Orem Message of September 3, 2009:

"...This is the same principle that you achieve when you call out for the appropriate energy information to activate all that needs to be activated within you and restoring the powerful presence of your consciousness, free of controls.

For the state of joyful creation within you to exist it is necessary to relieve yourself of the connections [free of controls], so this process has begun for many of you in your personal searches for reconnection to the patterns of light and information. You will have recognised this happening around you...."

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Audrey summarizes:

So, it seems everyone sensitive to energy and what's transpiring on the Planet is feeling the ramped up urgency to get our houses in order ... to be really clear on what it is we want and what it is we're finished with.

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Audrey recommends:

... taking heed of Lisa Renee's advice from her September article ...

"...As we traverse our path, the daily movie takes us to witness everything imaginable (and unimaginable) in the spectrum of the most grotesque to pure gorgeousness. Please do not fear. This is the inner alchemical process we undertake which synthesizes the polarities in which higher octaves of pure divine light can be generated, shaped and given form.

Once you can read or feel the energetic signatures one can clearly see the pattern existing in all things, as such as with an architectural blueprint. When you can read the energy blueprint first, you then can sense your resonance (or not) to that person, place or thing. Ask your God Self or Guidance Teams to show you the energetic “blueprint”.

This is the time to feel the energy signature first, rather than judging ANYTHING from the external layer. Nothing external is what it appears to be or what you think it is right now at a “face value”.

Take a breath and before rushing out to engage with something new, do a quick 12D shield and then do a basic energy scan. This is called boundary or field testing. Close your eyes and let your body “sense” the circumstance. Do you feel a “Yes” or a “No”? It’s that simple. (The more developed and healed you are in your emotional body the easier this will be. Have patience with yourself if you have trouble “feeling” the answer, with practice and dedication you WILL achieve this.)..."

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Audrey continues to share:

I'm going to be visiting Manhatten, New York in a few weeks! How exciting is THAT!!!

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone: 10/Manifestation
Sacred Sun Sign:  Earth/Caban
Trecena:  Star/Lamat

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Audrey says:

The shifts I'm sensing personally and those taking place on the Planet are ... phenomenal ... but even more so ... gratifying ... as the incoming energy now supports (... or is something we've made room for... ) much of the higher dimensional and inner work I and many others have been doing in the last several months if not years.

The Balanced Masculine has returned ... been recovered ... restored ... Take your pick ... So much so, that I believe we've turned a corner on Planet Earth!

This Balanced Masculine energy started "coming in" ... in my experience ... around the middle of May.

It was "he" who stepped so strongly and confidently forward and decided I was going to take the road trip I took in June ... Out of the blue ... I went from a state of sequester (for months on end) in a very feminine state of Being ... to ... POOF ... "man" of the world on a mission!

It was also around this time I began to SERIOUSLY considering dating after ... well, let's just say more than a decade of being out of THAT particular loop! But with my impending road trip I realized doing anything about it would have to wait for my return.

I wasn't counting on going back into sequester when I returned ... back into a state of just Being which I found frustrating at first but finally ... once again ... just surrendered into ... well, in a fashion ... because I felt strongly impulsed to clear even more patterns, programming and conditioning around Twin Flame union ... which of course was so much about the energy of the triad of eclipses we were experiencing ... and the balancing of the masculine and the feminine.

I also managed to put myself in a position to begin meeting men!

And, I have!

(Not without some drama on my part however because with the eclipse of August 5/6 I experienced a "quantum" leap in expansion collapsing timelines (probable events) in the process ... unbeknown to me at the time (just found my radar going squirrely with things disappearing off my "screen") ... which made connecting with anything or anyone very, very tricky.)

But, back to the return of the Divine Masculine ... As I was grounding this expanded state ... this quantum leap in consciousness into form ... I found more of my male aspects returning!

The first to return was the benevolent Provider and Protector! ... as I was finally able to grasp the realization that the flip side of the money-wielding, power-hungry, corrupt masculine I had shirked forever, was this benevolent Provider and Protector ... balanced, honorable, compassionate, protective, nurturing!

I also had another realization about the imbalanced masculine last evening (which was probably the reason why although I started this post yesterday I was unable to finish it until today) ... and that is that "he" had been alive and well within me too ... in other words, I was able to identify and own him in me ... and I realized that try as I had for years and months to bring the imbalance he represented in me into balance ... the energy on the Planet was never there to allow for this to happen. Compassion for that "money-wielding, power-hungry, corrupt masculine" blossomed within as I realized very few men outside those pathcutting the new energy on the Planet would have been able to come into balance without this energy that is now here to support this shift happening.

This was a humbling experience and another profound lesson in ... we don't know what we don't know ... and that the question of the times has shifted from "How do I do that?" (which is of the Mind and therefore the past) ... to "What don't I know?" (which is an inquiry to the Soul).

Men and corporations can now shift into balance ... so as others have predicted, I too wouldn't be surprised to see more collapse of systems coming in November with the beginning of the 6th Night of the Galactic Cycle of the Mayan Calendar ... however, this time there is every indication because of the arrival of this new balanced, masculine energy, that the recovery will not be more of the same old-boys-club, status-quo ... but REAL change ... profound change.

From my experience then, I wasn't too surprised to discover Karen Danrich's August 13, 2009 article The Return of Father Earth in which she provides her perspective or interpretation of what's just transpired on the Planet with respect to the masculine energy.

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Audrey continues:

Another male aspect I was able to recover (using the same process in successfully recovering the Provider/Protector) was the benevolent, unconditional loving and nurturing Father. He is of the same ilk as Dr. Len of Ho'oponopono fame ... who is a model of compassion and impeccability who lives and breathes forgiveness and self-responsibility. In recovering the benevolent inner Father the girl-child who's confidence in herself was crushed by his shadow can now be healed and integrated.

.... and so it goes

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Audrey shares more:

It's interesting how things have come full circle again ... to concentration on mastering being in the moment.

I very much concur with what the Eloheim reveal in Veronica Torres' The Energies of August video. It does feel like "we're starting over but not quite" as we now reinforce the foundation of ourselves as enSouled humans ... as we learn to allow the Soul to reveal the moment ... building the resonance for this to be a permanent state of being. I equate the mind now to that of a bird in nature ... rarely still as it nervously scans its surroundings for danger ... so goes the mind always scanning and sorting for danger ... real or imagined. So it has been helpful to continually ask "What am I afraid of in this moment?" as suggested by the Eloheim in order to breakdown the habitual attention given to the mind's paranoia ... I've progressed to simply asking myself "Mind? or Soul?" when I need to bring my attention back to the moment and what is being revealed.

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  6/Flow
Sacred Sun Sign:  Sun/Ahau
Trecena:  Eagle/Men

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Audrey says:

I'm back.

I thought I had lots to say but this may be short and sweet.

I was out walking late one night last week when we were experiencing such sweltering heat that to remain in my apartment one minute longer was not to be borne. As I was walking I started composing in my mind this explanation for someone ... I forget who ... that "Everything just IS."

I found myself on different blogs over the next few days where this explanation of "Everything just IS" seemed to bear repeating time and again.

I finally realized I was being given this message ... for myself ... for further decoding, I guess you could say.

From recent entries you'll recall that I'd been pulled back into sequestration after my return in mid-June from a wonderful, extended road trip ... a road trip which I thought signaled the end to months and months of the same life-stopping sequestration ...

"Where the hell are we now?" I began seriously inquiring of the Universe.

The answer, quite simply, turns out to be .... we're at The Living of IS!

I further believe this acceptance and living of IS, is the "gateway" that Lani Calkin has been talking about in her messages from Orem the last several weeks.

We've left "fix it" behind and have arrived irrevocably at "IS" ... "Everything just IS".

There is no more "doing" ... for "doing" is of the mind and the masculine.

What I believe is being asked of us is that we now master the feminine state of "being" ... Balancing the feminine and the masculine thus creating that Zero Point field ... the eye of the needle ... the "gateway" ... through which we will simply step into Oneness ... which some of us are already doing ... which has presented us with a whole new set of lessons to master.

Keys to fathoming and making our way in this new state of Oneness, Unity, Wholeness ... I've found in Lee Carroll/Kryon's Becoming Quantum which correlates with what the Visionaries are saying in Veronica Torres' The Living of IS ... we're now experiencing life from the Soul's perspective which is minus linear time, for one thing ... Everything ... past, present and future ... is here ... NOW ... which can feel overwhelming without us realizing it ... causing us to split out (not be Present) ... which makes the Eloheim's What's True in This Moment? exercise very, very helpful and grounding as we stabilize ourselves in this new paradigm.

What made me realize what was going on for me this past month while in sequestration was reading Kryon talk about autism:

Take a look at the autistic Human Being. Here is a Human Being who has an attribute where something is seemingly missing. Perhaps you've been around certain kinds of those autistic consciousnesses? Then you know what it is that they lack. It is the construct of linearity. For an autistic mind is one who does not understand linearity and is always trying to grasp order and symmetry. He is desperately trying to build a construct around his consciousness so he can make sense of the world. The truth is that he is far more quantum than you are!

What was happening for me is that I was experiencing this lack of the construct of linearity which has in the past provided order and symmetry to my experience of life. Take that away ... and its like putting a goldfish in the ocean after its been swimming in a fish bowl all its life!

But, again ... thankfully ... we've been given some tools to help us negotiate our way in this new vastness. Here's two:

From the Visionaries: ... Realize we're bringing our Soul's entire experience into the moment, and to monitor the biological response to this by being Present in Neutral Observation.

From the Eloheim: ... Asking ourselves "What's true in this moment?" to help us ground and orientate ourselves in the vastness of the moment.

Here's a personal example of how using the question, "What's true in this moment?" helped ground and orientate me in this vastness.

This morning I didn't want to get out of bed ... I eventually asked myself, "What's true in THIS moment?" I observed a feeling of "fear" of facing yet another day in the emptiness of the Void ... been there done that time and time again in the last couple of years ... I further observed this "fear" was based on a past experience ... not in the moment at all ... So I asked myself again, "What's true in THIS moment?" ... That's when I sensed a truer answer of feeling overwhelmed at the vastness of what loomed before me ... the lack of the construct of linearity to provide order and symmetry to my day made it seem unmanageable! That's what I was really fearing. That's what I had been unconscious of! I was then able to reframe the thought of "vast emptiness" into one of "infinite possibilities" ... and out of bed I bounced!

This then is what I must remain conscious of ... monitoring and managing my biological response to my entire Soul's experience being Present ... here ... now ... in this moment ...

Nothing to "do". The Soul will lead ... I just have to be conscious of this new operating system ... just conscious ... just present to what's going on by asking if need be, "What's true in this moment?"

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  4/Stability
Sacred Sun Sign:  Serpent/Chiccan
Trecena:  Wind/Ik

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Audrey says:

Time to write ... something ... ANYTHING!

So where the hell are we now?!

Closest thing that makes sense to me comes from Karen Bishop's July 28, 2009 message The Re-Calibration With a Very New Plan, wherein she states:

Those who have been diligently going through the ascension process, letting go of so much, purging and releasing all these years, and transmuting so much of the darker energies for the planet, have now been "sequestered," while we wait for a new energetic space to be prepared … and this is a space that has to be created with very new circumstances....

The sequestering phase is an interesting one, I must say. For me, I experienced an entire harem of my star family in the non-physical, hanging in my space for several days, basically removing me from any outside experiences, influences, or interaction. I had been airlifted off the planet (while still being here, of course), as a very distinct ending had occurred. And a huge ending it was. Our entire experience thus far on this planet since our birth this time around, has now been very much completed. It is very over indeed. We have been decidedly removed from what is now occurring with the remainder of the planet (for more information about was is occurring on the lower rungs, kindly access the previous WINGS post for July 23.)

Audrey continues:

Whatever the reason for being placed back in sequestration (I have to have more evidence before I go with Karen's assessment) ... back in sequestration, I am! Urgh!

I too have felt like I've been removed from any outside experiences, influences, or interaction .... and have been airlifted off the planet. How frustrating after experiencing months and months of sequestration and then believing I'd received my get-out-of-jail-free-card with my road trip in June just to find myself plunked back in isolation again upon my return!

What IS going on? My Guides aren't talking ... a further frustration!

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Audrey moves into acceptance:

OK. Enough bitching.

I did have a dream the other night. Two dreams actually.

One was about small blue butterflies everywhere ... can't recall anything more than that about it ... and another of a black butterfly ... descending ... into my vision from above ... that immediately started becoming transparent (or white) throughout its wings and a portion of it's body. I was concerned that it's legs weren't becoming transparent.

Darn.

I'm assuming I still have more transmuting to do ... or grounding of the higher energies into the physical.

Sigh.

Ah ha! ... I just "heard" (... THEY're talking again?!) ... hmmmm ... Okay ... I was given a vision of the black and white yin/yang symbol! (Tears are welling up) ... This makes sense since what I've been impulsed ... strongly impulsed ... to do since I've been back in sequestration is to further clear and integrate the Twin Flame energies! ... Further Balance the inner/archetypal feminine and masculine!

I'm now receiving a download of energy ... while that works its way through me, I'll try to continue typing ....

****

Audrey continues:

I've noticed a deeper opening of my Heart ... Yesterday, I had to venture out into 3D to get my hair cut and I noticed, in particular, my reaction to two unique male characters I happened upon. One was a quadriplegic in a motorized wheelchair driving down the street in front of me! My first thought was ... Man, are you crazy or what? You want to get yourself killed? You're seriously in my way ... I then found my heart softening and opening, and thinking ... Wow! He's got some place to go and he's getting himself there ... He's not letting anything stop him! ... I met the next character at a Stop light only a block or so past the guy in the wheelchair. This fellow was tall and thin, old and stooped, leaning on a cane. As the Walk light lit up, I watched this fellow take almost a minute to get himself off the sidewalk and into the crosswalk to shuffle in front of me to the other side of the street! I observed my initial thoughts to be ... Why on earth wasn't he prepared to step immediately into the crosswalk instead of taking so much time just to get himself off the curb?! ... He's never going to make it before the light turns green. He's going to hold up traffic! ... But, again, I found my heart melting in compassion for his sheer bravery at being out on the streets at all.

Once I got home, I spent the rest of the day and evening crying ... surrendered tears ... the Heart open ... feeling there's not much else TO do at this point ... Keenly aware of the enslavement program still running amock on the Planet ... aware of being caught up in the incessant stop and go of the Higher Energies jerking us haltingly "forward" ... aware that we never seem to "arrive" any place "new" in a physical sense ... and who really gives a damn anymore!

Sigh.

I've been preaching acceptance on different blogs the last few days ... so I leave you today taking my own advice of:

         ...... sinking deeper into a state of acceptance of what IS

                 ........ invoking the Universal Harmonics into the Still Point to keep myself in a state of order, balance and harmony

AND

                         ........ determined to return to a state of Neutral Observation

until I regain my equilibrium or not ... Oh ya, I also intend to review the articles posted to the Experiencing New Earth page of this website to remind myself I'm not in "Kansas" anymore.

****

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This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  One/Unity
Sacred Sun Sign:  Wind/Ik
Trecena:  Wind/Ik

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Audrey says:

Another Ascension Day in the Tzolkin scheme of things and ... right on schedule, I believe last night I experienced what Lani Calkin describes in her latest Orem transmission:

"... In many ways you are about to disassemble and to be taken directly into a new life force. What is imminent around you is a superior activation for you....

...You may be sensing a heat movement or a vision of one particular energy centre within you that has come onto the activation grid for you, deeply into alignment for you and this will be making sure that you are in attunement with the particular area of existence that you will be moving to, that you will be feeling you are working within. And as you are aligned and attuned through this process in the transmissions then you will find your life will become clearer and you will be moving forward in ways you have forgotten, ways that you had felt were missing from you in the sense of being driven by a greater energy force. You are being retuned to a more highly vibrating pattern of life and existence...."

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Audrey continues:

What I actually experienced in the middle of the night after relocating to my front-room futon to catch a breeze in the stifling heat, was a further opening of the Heart Chakra and spinal column up into the medulla oblongata (brain stem) with tingling up into the head. There was a blissful feel to this opening (none of that tearing and wrenching open of the past).

Just wanted to record that experience here for future reference.

Jen Eramith had also reported in her July Akashic Records transmission that the energy would start moving again after the 17th.

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Audrey recommends:

Veronica Torres' latest blurb from the Eloheim, Someday is TODAY.

I've taken to watching these videos at Veronica's Youtube site because my older laptop struggles with opening her website (although I find her commentary on these sessions highly informational and can only be found on her website).

I've taken to heart what the Eloheim have recently asked us to do, and that is "show up" ready to progress ...  and evolve ... from each of their sessions, so when the Eloheim counsel us to get over "some day" and "accept now in order for now to change" in their latest video, the energy is there for us to kick that program out of our fields.

What came up for me out of this session was, "Do I realllly need to experience more financial lack?" "Does it have more to teach me?" "When is "some day I'll experience freedom from this frequency fence" going to be NOW?" "Why do I keep putting it off?"

I leave this post retracing my evolutionary steps in this regard ...

****

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone: 13/Ascension
Sacred Sun Sign: Star/Lamat
Trecena: Wisdom/Cib

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Audrey says:

Hello.

Not feeling particularly inspired since my return, but I feel I have to move the energy so we'll see what wants to be said.

My road trip was amazing ...

Amazing, firstly, because it happened at all!

To go from 18 months of sequestration wherein I barely left the neighborhood, and prior to that (while doing grid work) barely leaving the city (for 9 years) ... From being very timid in the physical and with my physical surroundings (while integrating the Feminine) .... to suddenly deciding and announcing to my flabbergasted daughter and family that I was off on a lengthy road trip ... well, that truely signified a change in my experience!

From the moment I decided I would take this road trip to the moment I left home ... with absolutely no one around to see me off (which felt kinda eerie) ... I never had a moments qualms about undertaking it ... no second guessing ... no fear scenarios haunting my every waking moment, etc.

This trip was also amazing in that, I absolutely experienced what Veronica Torres has been bringing through from the Eloheim and Visionaries on her website (which I only read upon my return) ... and that is, observing my different response to physical experiences ... For the most part, I interacted with the physical from a space of neutral observation ... very little fazed me ... I mean, I REALLY noticed this! because I found myself in some circumstances that in the past I'd have found very uncomfortable, yet ... I just observed myself carrying on with little or no re-action. It was for the most part wonderfully peaceful and loving.

I was also prompted to stay 100% present ... this I was also able to do for the most part.

The only significant ... blip ... in the experience of neutral observation was when I entered a freeway of a city just as a deluge of rain hit ... it was raining so hard that I could barely see in front of and around me, let alone the signage as to where to exit! The only thing I could do was scream ... out loud ... yes, scream ... for my Guides and Angels to come in and assist.

In reviewing the situation afterward, it was as though the physical was responding to the situation out of habit ... fear ... while, at my core, I was absolutely calm and centered ... actually listening to my Guides telling me to speed up to ease the situation (which under the circumstances of limited vision due to down pouring rain) seemed to make little sense, yet ... DID make it easier to drive in those conditions! In later recounting this experience to those I was visiting in this city, I also noticed the words of excitement coming out of my mouth describing this situation were not connected to any real emotion around what I had just experienced ... even the excited recounting of the experience was just empy habit!

Another thing I found very helpful and ... different ... throughout my trip was observing the mind habitually trying to trigger the body into a fear re-action to imagined scenarios! I found myself constantly asking myself whenever a fear arose, "Do I reallllly need to have that fear experience?"  ... I asked this in a very heartfelt manner. I was cognizant of the fact that I had a choice of experiences.

Throughout my trip, I also continually worked at opening and being in Portals of Desired Experience ... This only seemed to let me down with the deluge on the freeway experience ... otherwise, I definintely felt I was traveling in the experiences of my choice ... I was also just reminded of one other incident that didn't exactly unfold to plan ... when I was stopped on a highway for 3 hours due to a transport truck mishap just ahead of me!

I was reminded by my Guides, however, at some point in my travels ... when it started to lightly rain in a Fairweather Portal I'd opened ... that if we never again experienced rain, we would never again experience Rainbows! ... and although we may encounter certain circumstances not to our liking, we will always have the tools and consciousness to handle them with grace and ease.

AMEN!

****

Audrey continues:

I'm not feeling all that comfortable being ... home. To break that down ... I've returned to a place where I've lived a very limited life for the last several years ... a very quiet life ... a very alone life ... a sequestered life.

I feel like I'm ready to return to the Tribe ... take my place in the Tribe ... yet, I'm back in this place of aloneness ... quiet ... solitude.

For the most part, I felt very empowered on my road trip ... living life as I was meant to live it ... FREE.

Then there's coming back to still the task of breaking through the frequency fence of lack. Thanks to Lisa Renee's July 2009 article, Surpassing the Glass Ceiling, I begin to see this limitation for what it is ... a frequency fence ... which the energies are finally aligning(?) to help us shatter. Meg Benedicte's July 6, 2009 World Puja program, Costs to Our Freedom, gives us tools to remove these frequency fences.

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Audrey carries on:

There's also Lani Calkin's Omega Transmission of July 16, 2009 which is a timely reminder that we're still in transit ... still a work in progress.

So all I can do at these in-between times is to continually immerse myself in the energy of these transmissions, and work with the 12D vortex and departiclization ... and remain Present ... observing the biology's response to the Soul's experience of the physical ... and ...

Remember ...

I have no idea how to live an expanded life ... so

.... I must continually ask to be shown and guided.

****

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone: 12/Understanding
Sacred Sun Sign: Deer/Manik
Trecena: Wisdom/Cib

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Audrey says:

I feel I'm still in tweet mode but sense a song coming on so ... we'll see what issues forth from me in this post!

I truly am experiencing living in two different, distinct dimensions these last several days.

As you should know by now, when I go silent on this site, it's usually because I've landed in a new ... place/space/experience/existence ... take your pick ... and I'm trying to fathom out where I'm at so I can relay that information to you.

So while nothing seems to be ... moving ... on the physical plane ... man or man, am I ever busy settling into and figuring out the workings of a higher dimensional Earth. It's like, prior to it coming on-line, I get to test drive this new existence ... check out all the new gadgets ... figure out what happens when I do this and what happens when I do that, etc.

I absolutely adore choosing what rendition of an experience I want to participate in by attuning always to the Portal of Perfect Unfoldment of that particular experience (which I usually personalize by, for example, describing it to myself as Portal of Best Hair Cut wherein I imagine and intend what kind of hair cut I intend to receive, focusing into the energy of it or the place where I'm already experiencing that reality).

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Audrey continues:

I continue to be blown away by the experience of the Portal of Youthing and Rejuvenating the Physical Body. I experience it as Bliss in the body as chains of energy reactions are sparked off within.

Give it a whirl! Just lock onto and into the energy pathway of that Portal, yourself (with your imagination). I'd love to hear your experience of it in the comments below. CAUTION: Don't do so when you have to be fully alert like when driving or caring for young children or operating machinery, etc.

****

Audrey carries on:

I'm also loving the Portal of Safe, Quick and Easy Travel which I lock onto whenever I have to drive anywhere. To give you some background as to why this is such an important Portal for me ....

Five years ago I bought a new car after being without a car for four years (for the first time in my adult life). Soon thereafter, unbeknownst to me at the time, I entered into a major and lengthy physical reconstruction phase of the Ascension process. In my ignorance of what was going on intially during this time period, I kept having little incidents with my BRAND NEW car wherein it sustained little scratches and nicks. This freaked me out because I've driven all my life, and am an excellent driver yet here I was having all these strange driving experiences until I FINALLY realized I wasn't experiencing the physical world the SAME way as I did in the past. My PERCEPTION and PERSPECTIVE had shifted, and I was having trouble negotiating the physical plane ... my memory of driving in the past was not matching my current experience of navigating the physical world! ... This happened not only in the area of driving, but with other things as well ... money, for example.

I ended up becoming frightened of and insecure about driving, and would really have to psyche myself up ... plus call in layers of energetic protection ... before I would venture out in my BRAND NEW car (which was hugely frustrating to my daughter).

Now with the Portal of Safe, Easy and Quick Travel available to me, my insecurity and fear is fast falling away. Driving in this Portal of existence is an experience of everything being ... greased ... smooth, flowing ... Even when I'm cut off or have to make a quick detour to avoid something, it's like the way is ... greased for me, for want of a better word ... for this to happen easily and naturally ... with no emotional angst accompanying it. Whee!

ANNNNND ... I'm about to embark on an extended road trip in my STILL BRAND NEW 5 year old car! ... which absolutely delights me! My Spiritual Sequestration has ended! WoooHoo!

I think this calls for a dance of joy!

****

Audrey continues:

As Karen Bishop describes in her June 3, 2009 post (check her archives if no longer at this link) excerpted below, I have no doubt this road trip is about grounding to New Earth as I take a trip back in time to my beginnings in this lifetime, through countryside "where I left my heart many years ago" ...

"...Along with this massive adjustment and acceptance, we are also beginning our re-connection to the earth. In recent weeks, we have been given the opportunity to connect to the earth as never before. A few weeks ago, I took a short trip back to southwest Colorado where I lived for many years. The minute I crossed over at the border, I teared up, felt a massive re-connection, and experienced an overwhelming feeling of “home.” And when I arrived back home in New Mexico, a massive angel filled the sky directly over my house, re-connecting me once again. I am certainly not alone, as I know that many of you are having similar, but perhaps different in some ways, experiences of fully arriving here and re-connecting to the earth now as never before.

We are grounding our energies within the earth now, in ways that we have been unable to do until now. Places on the earth where we may have left our hearts many years ago, are beckoning to us now, as they are saying that when we arrived in times past, it was simply not yet time … but now it is. Much, if not all, of the old dark stewardship of the earth is now gone. In this way, we are, of course, the very new stewards. So then, the earth is opening up for our arrival. It is opening its arms so very wide to welcome us in, to allow our presence, and to let us know that things will now be so very different indeed. The old resistance energy will now be gone, and we will soon be able to create what we have always known...."

****

Audrey keeps on singing:

Like many others have reported, I too am feeling the lull before the storm ... or being in the eye of the hurricane. I've been doing absolutely ... nothing ... these last several weeks ... Yet, this time around ... I've experienced more peace with it ... like I KNOW this is a preparation period ... all unfolding on higher dimensions at present ... I've not resisted the stillness and VOID energies so much, in fact I've noticed a huge shift into acceptance of them ... just being very present that THIS ... is.

And, of course, in the meantime, there's been the different Portals to try out and play in ... which is such a blast!

I see my road trip as traveling through inter-connected worm holes of space and existence, creating my experience as I go.

AND, I realize I feel ... CONFIDENT! ... about carrying this off!

Now there's a word I can't say I've honestly experienced for the past several years when it comes to experiencing the physical plane! But it seems to be instilled in me now which is further indication to me that I've arrived ... home ... in familiar territory ... in the New Earth. I no longer feel like I'm from ... the future ... a duck out of water ... but rather that I exist for this time that is now unfolding on the Planet ... and I'm willing and rar'n to go!

We DID it!

Utterly amazing!

****

Audrey is well aware, however ....

That others (neighbours, family, friends) are still transiting their dark night of the Soul ... and that the energy is almost unbearable to those trodding this treacherous path.

Keep going.

There is no way out, except through it ... as I counseled someone just this morning who sought my clarity. To anesthetize ourselves with habit and addiction is simply to put off for another hour, another day, another week ... that which we will eventually surrender to ... die to ... so that we get to LIVE the LIFE of our dreams! Remember, we signed up to be here now, to have these experiences, to get to the other side of them ... to WAKE UP.

Keep going ...

The bridge is built ...

and your very own dance of joy awaits you on the other side!

****

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  7/Reflective
Sacred Sun Sign:  Night/Akbal
Trecena: Earth/Caban

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Audrey says:

Have you been putting your focus on the Light Portals of your dreams? Of your needs and desires?

I think of these Portals as ... existences. What do I want to experience in my day?

I've taken to focusing on the Portal of Easy Travel or Clear Streets or Flowing Traffic when I need to go somewhere so that my experience of traveling is quick, easy, safe and peaceful ... in other words, I want the best or highest experience of traveling to and from my destination.

Yesterday, I focused on the Portal of Best Hair Cut! I was concerned with what kind of hair cut I was going to receive after my last experience wherein I clearly explained to the stylist ... or so I thought ... what kind of cut I wanted ... I even showed her a picture of it! ... And, I walked out with something completely different! Cute ... but not what I asked for. So this time as I was fussing and fretting about how I was going to get my message across, I was prompted to focus on the Portal of Best Hair Cut! It worked! I got the cut I wanted!

Do you see how much fun this is?

Do you understand how we're creating now?

We're Magnetic Beings now. We focus on the Portal of existence we wish to experience and ... voilà! ... we magnetize it to us ... or, we magnetize into it!

My short experience of this is that when I have a want, need or desire I realize I already have it ... the experience of me having that want, need or desire already exists ... because everything exists in the All That Is ... I just haven't consciously connected with it yet. So I put my focus on the Light Portal of Existence through which I'm already experiencing what it is I'm wanting but have not yet connected with in my current experience. I'm quite kinesthetic so I can feel the line or pathway of energy leading from me to and through the open Portal of my desire, and I just stay focused on that energy line and with my ... mind or imagination ... just follow it through the open Portal into the experience. I usually feel energy adjustments occurring within me as I do this ... because ... obviously, I'm not at the same frequency as my desire otherwise I'd already be experiencing it so when I focus into the energy line of that desire, discordant energy and impedance(s) are brought to the surface to be released from my field or to be brought to my attention to be consciously transmuted so I can experience my desire!

In my brief experience of this way of manifesting, the desired experience of some Portals is quicker to manifest than others ... Ya, you got it.  I'm still focusing on the Portal of Sovereign Financial Abundance (non-karmic, unity money) with nothing to report as of this morning other than last night I found a cord coming into me through which I was leaking energy ... so there is movement in that direction.

I can't emphasize enough the benefits of basking in the energy of the Orem transmissions to assist us to advance in these energies.

****

Audrey continues:

Something else to report is that I feel like I'm entering familiar territory! It feels like I'm coming home! It's like ... All right! Finally something that makes sense and is familiar is starting to unfold!

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Audrey provides an update:

For those following my government saga, they've faded away again.

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Audrey shares more:

Last night instead of feeling helpless about two family members going through some physical challenges, I invoked Love into me and dedicated it to them to help cut through the fear they're experiencing or to be used in whatever way was in their Highest interest ... or, not.

The reason I tell you this is because ... be careful what you ask for!

Energy ... Love ... poured into me to the point where I felt ... possessed ... by it! The Light show/fireworks in the area of the Third Eye was fantastic, and at one point my head seemed to expand to Planet size (painlessly)! This Love energy took me over and worked throughout my field and body to clear, purify, open and ... heal it, I guess you'd say ...

Mind you, I'd also connected with the Portal of Youthing or Rejuvenation of the Physical Body in the same time frame, so perhaps that's what was happening as well. It was an amazing experience!

Audrey muses:

I'm thinking of Twittering in between posts.

What I really need is an IPhone for an extensive road trip I'm undertaking shortly ... I think I'll focus on the Portal of Me Already Having an IPhone (this or something better for the Highest Good of All) so if I'm not posting, I can at least be Twittering ... and receiving my weekly Orem fixes and your emails.

****

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  3/Action
Sacred Sun Sign:  Storm/Cauac
Trecena: Earth/Caban

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Audrey says:

Have you been attuning to the Portals of your dreams? Do you sense, see or perhaps hear a line or pathway of Light energy leading from you straight to and through that particular Portal into the experience and living of it as your reality now?

Even if you can't feel, see, hear, imagine or intuit that pathway of energy ... just intend it ... I do that sometimes when I'm busy with something else yet find my monkey-mind getting itself into trouble with lower vibrational thoughts and internal dramatizations ... ah, Shadow boxing, that is ... I find that intending attunement with those pathways of energy does the trick just as well, as I find myself ... lock on ... to that particular Light energy pathway. I then feel my whole energy field align itself to that vibration and ... I'm off!

I find this so deliciously, crazily fun! I mean, there's no limit! to what we can get ourselves into!

Besides the Portal of Sovereign Financial Abundance I've been attuning to this morning, I was ... prompted ... to attune to the Portal of "I'm God, I'm Sovereign, I'm Free" (words first coined by Lisa Renee) ... feeling myself cross-over completely into that ... frequency ... What happens when I do this is that whatever in me ... perhaps something in the mental body, emotional body or a parallel life, etc. ... whatever is not in alignment with that ... truth or frequency ... gets ... treated ... gets brought into balance and harmony with the frequency I'm attuning to ... with whatever's out of whack simply being discharged from my field or brought to my awareness for me to consciously process through to transformation and alignment.

Another portal I look forward to exploring is the Portal of Youthing the Physical Body. This may sound vain to you but to me its always been ... there ... in the back of my mind ... a fascination, you might say ... like how I knew financial Sovereignty was possible ... I KNOW that the physical body can regenerate itself to and maintain a state of youthfulness. Lisa Renee speaks of this age of eternal youth as being that of 33 years old. So, like consciously going into financial debt in order to find the truth behind the programming of indebtedness ... I've not fussed about the color fading from my hair because well, first of all, I've always striven to be impeccable and authentic .... AND, I knew I would have to process the programming and societal conditioning behind aging (and the fear, grief and denial that seems to go with it) before I would be free to realize the truth of the resurrection of the physical body to its perfect age ... the age of 33. So I'm almost giddy with excitement that I can now realize this truth! The realization of this truth, after my years of knowingness about it, is as exciting as the actual anticipated resurrection of my physical gorgeousness!

(Speaking of which I need to break for a few minutes to lay on another coat of fire-engine-red toenail polish ... it tis the season!)

****

Audrey continues:

There! Summer has officially begun!

****

Audrey shares:

Damn and blast ... the government was back again yesterday. This after a couple days reprieve in which I thought perhaps I'd gotten to the root of the issue. So, needless to say, like a mad scientist I spent a good portion of yesterday in my inner laboratory searching for the missing link that will banish their peskiness from my life once and for all.

Lo' and behold, this morning I found an inner child that's perhaps (God, I hope so) the source of the issue.

I've known about her for ... forever ... she is the one who consciously and willfully defied her parents' command for the very first time at the tender age of ... 3 or 4, I'd say.

She did this by refusing to be paraded in front of company to be gawked at and commented upon as if SHE did not exist as a person in and of herself, with her own wishes and desires. How bloody insulting to the conscious little Soul I was at the time! But to refuse my parents ... well, that was death-defying, and with older siblings trying to physically pry me out from behind the door I was hiding behind ... traumatizing.

So this morning in another attempt to get to the root of the government believing it can freely rape and pillage me ... out she popped.

She knew exactly what I was experiencing. It was the same experience of being given absolutely no choice in a situation she had no part in creating ... had in no way instigated ... but which was being foisted upon her, and one in which others were physically attempting to force her to comply (my landlord has been letting the government into the building to carry out their dastardly deed!), with both of us ... consciously and willfully saying ... "NO" ... to the situation, firmly ensconced each behind our door, I might add! (At present, it's my apartment door that's my only barrier ... the last stronghold physically shielding me from invasion.)

So I sat down with this inner child this morning and was prompted to ask her what it is that is locking her in place behind the door ... keeping her frozen ... in such terrified resistance to the situation. The answer was ... she was resistant to what others thought of her ... of hearing, unsolicited, what others (the gawking company) thought of her ... like she was an animal or slave on display ... forced to defy her primary caregivers in order to preserve ... take back ... her very Soul?! (Whoa ... where did that come from?)

To her it was a life and death situation. One does not defy one's primary caregivers without consequences. This could result in certain death.

As I write this, I sense a past life bleeding through ... big time ... perhaps in a lifetime past I resisted being paraded by my parents or enslavers before those whose clear intent was to rape me ... and died for my effort.

That seems to put things a bit more in perspective when all I seem to be worried about in this lifetime is what others think of me!

Back to my interaction with the inner child ... After listening to what she had to say, I handed her a box of 64 crayons and asked her, with 64 new solutions now available to her, how would she like to try out a few?

That's when I was prompted to attune to the Portal of "I'm God, I'm Sovereign, I'm Free". Upon doing this, I/inner child realized this was me stepping into ... autonomy ... Once and for all letting go of giving my power away ... leaking it ... by caring more what others think of me than what I KNOW for my Self to be Truth. This is me ... growing up! ... This is me being self-contained and self-governing ... LOL ... self-governing! This is me being Sovereign!

Too funny! Is this the lesson the government's been hounding me to learn?!

One last thing that came up in this process this morning was the word and prompting to ... expand. I thought to myself, where did I hear that same prompting just recently? Of course, it's from Lani Calkin's May 21, 2009 Orem transmission (who first introduced the concept of "Portals" discussed herein ... for those of you new to this site).

We really are being urged ... I believe ... to step into all and every Portal that is our heart's desire to experience ... to EXPAND into the Truth of our Infinite Beingness. The energy is here to now support this.

May the Force be with you! LOL

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Audrey wraps it up:

I just looked up the word "autonomy" to make sure I'd spelled it correctly and was blown away by some of its definitions!

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Audrey recommends:

I'm intrigued by DL Zeta's article Awakening to the Dream: May 27 Portal Offers Healing and Transcendence. Check it out.

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  11/Resolution
Sacred Sun Sign:  Jaguar/Ix
Trecena: Seed/Kan

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Audrey says:

Have you read Lani Calkin's May 21, 2009 Orem transmission?

It seems to hold a huge KEY to co-creation!

If you will recall, we were asked in an earlier Orem transmission to align to a "gateway" or "open portal" that was before us ... which I took to heart and did.

Here is how it was described to us in that transmission:

"...Have your focus within the pattern of light as if it is an open gateway just ahead of you which you sense and know in your perceptions, yet you may not be able to touch it physically or see it with your physical eyes, but your knowingness is in tune with that vibration and you will move into that open portal. Also as you attune to the vibration of it, you become the transmitter of that energy into all that is echoed behind you, resonating in the depths of creation on Earth. So recognise that all aspects of you, across time and existence, that have manifested in experience are receiving this impulse.

This moment out of time here is where you dedicate yourself to that aspect of you that is receptive to these impulses.

You may see within you the vision of how you exist in different life patterns and that you are being uplifted and supported in whatever you are experiencing.

So, is this a beautiful pattern for you to bring in to your life consciously now? You could almost meet yourself in different realities and at this phase of evolvement you are closely connected with that aspect of you that has already achieved what you are seeking to expand into, as we have brought to you in earlier transmissions, connected now. You are more capable of realising what it is that you would wish to have with you in the process of the life journey now in this moment. You have expanded into the consciousness that has everything available to you...."

                                                                      ~

The energy from that open portal was so intense that I couldn't stay focused on it for very long but would return to focusing upon it whenever I thought to do so.

The culmination of that repetitive exercise was to find myself, several weeks later, laid flat out on my back for a day while physical adjustments and integration of the energy took place. That resulted in me feeling ... Lighter ... Lightness ... like a lot of density had dropped away from the physical body ... WITH the further realization, several days later, that I had arrived in a different place ... deeper into the Void, is how I conceptualize it ... feeling like I have a buffer zone of protection and security around me now. In other words, I now exist on the other side of that first gateway or portal I was focused on from the Orem transmission!

Well, in Lani's latest transmission we're again being coaxed (for the life of me, I can't remember how to spell that word at the moment, and will have to look it up in the dictionary!! ... I'm deep in the energy of what I'm writing and my analytical brain is not at the fore) ... we're again being coxed? to align to certain "portals" of Light Energy that we're feeling deficient in in our physical lives. While I know this will eventually lead us to realizing higher aspirations of connection and creation, until I have the physical stabilized I feel that just ain't gonna happen for me nor am I that interested in pursuing those higher aspirations! So I've decided to focus my attention on the open portal of SOVEREIGN financial abundance (non-karmic, "unity" money).

I experience this as an open, Light-filled gateway or portal in front of me with a line or path of Light-filled energy leading from me to it, and through it. I physically experience this pathway of energy ... there is sensation to it, in other words. By focusing on this pathway of energy I imagine myself passing through the open portal of Sovereign financial abundance (... or the Higher Self pulling me through or, melding with that aspect of me that has already achieved this state), and wandering around on the other side of it ... experiencing the fulfillment of Being an inhabitant of this energy/space. I feel ... expanded ... and filled up ... I feel that energy filling my body. I feel myself containing that energy ... that abundance ... and it is ... good ... I'm now expanding that energy out from my body ... one foot, two feet, four feet, seven feet, twelve feet ... deep sigh. My body and energy field is ... humming ... with this energy.

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Audrey continues:

I find it intriguing that Aluna Joy Yaxk'in posted an article May 21, 2009 from the Star Elders about Abundance is on the way to you ... I now invite you to read my post of that same day. (Was I the hundredth monkey?! LOL)

If I had to hazard a guess as to what's transpiring on the Planet at the moment from my experience and inner promptings and Aluna's message, it is that resonance has been reached in that enough people have built their ... containers (housing the Soul) ... the Chalice ... the Holy Grail ... so that Sovereign Abundance can now flow through to these vessels, and the New Way of Abundance is NOW established on the Planet (If this is indeed the case, this state of affairs is only 9 months late in physically manifesting then from the date of my original prediction! LOL ... Hope you'al have retained your sense of humor in the meantime! YIKES!)

As an aside, my very-grounded-in-the-3D-physical (but very open to the higher realms) daughter just experienced several financial ... blows. Is this a further indication that the New Way of Abundance is taking hold and the old way (which my daughter is very proficient at and which has been a huge blessing and stabilizing energy in my life ... my anchor, really) is, indeed ... fizzling? Or, is this just Mercury retrograde messing with her?

Too soon to tell, but stay tuned.

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Audrey offers encouragement:

I would encourage you to focus into whatever open portal would bless and stabilize your life at this time, and I would love for you to share the results with me in the comments below.

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  9/Patience
Sacred Sun Sign:  Road/Eb
Trecena: Seed/Kan

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Audrey says:

I'm getting more insights into my Government issue ... seems there are a number of layers to it to unravel.

My latest insight is that it's like the ego and the Soul are learning how to get along with each other, as well as the ego healing wounds of violation and trust. It's also about boundaries ... still strengthening that outer shell ... and discernment ... and taking back my Power ... owning it ... and Sovereignty.

Reading and listening to Veronica Torres' Eloheim channel of May 13, 2009, Where Are We Now, helped me settle in for the long haul of transforming the Government situation for I have to admit I was seriously just wanting it to go away!

This is partially what Veronica has to say:

"You want your life to be different but what you are really saying is, “I just want this to go away.” Nothing just goes away. It doesn’t work that way. It either goes away but it gets put in the queue to come up again or you stay in it until you transform it.

What you are IN you’re IN to transform! What you are IN you’re IN to experience.

The desire to “make it go away” is a coping mechanism for the challenges that a conscious life presents.

When you want something to ‘just go away’ that is the big red alert that habit is attempting to run the show.

What are you rushing, what are you trying to avoid, and what do you want to skip?

The thing you are trying to skip feels impossible, but it is just showing you new possibilities. It is seeing it from a new perspective.

What is it that I can embrace right now to have this situation be more deeply informing my journey?

What crayon is best (for my highest growth) right now?"

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Audrey continues:

De-particle-izing the inner Archetypal Government and infusing it with Soul, and re-forming it as an enSouled Governmental Body has certainly ... softened ... the animosity the ego's been feeling towards the Government.

This morning I recalled words from Meg Benedicte's World Puja programs wherein she guides us in meditation to fuse together the human-self and the Soul. Looking back, I acknowledge how these words annoyed me and how this part of the meditation irritated me for I just wanted to be done with the human-self and just be fully enSouled ALREADY! But what I realize now is that there's no skipping the ... journey ... the gradual integration ... of full enSoulment, and part of that journey and integration process is to g r a d u a l l y bring together the ego and the Soul because, as the Eloheim inform us, and which I guess (reluctantly) I already know ... we are not built for quick and abrupt change but more for slow and steady progress (otherwise we go into shock and, I imagine, dis-ease).

AND, as I've learned from learning to tolerate my dear neighbour (who used to annoy the hell out of me with his middle of the night marijuana smoking habit) ... is that LOVE ... the pouring out of Love ... at annoyances, is quite the quickest way to neutralize them.

Zooming back out to the Big Picture once again, I can see how enSouled humans will gradually begin to infiltrate Government Bodies, and this is how Governments will eventually become enSouled (hundredth Monkey).

I can also see how the loss of Time (leaving the realm of Time) will allow the human to transform more quickly (although we won't experience it as "quickly") without going into shock and dis-ease. AND, to take this one step further, I can see how Time will become so cumbersome that we'll be more than glad to be free of it!

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  8/Justice
Sacred Sun Sign:  Monkey/Chuen
Trecena: Seed/Kan

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Here's a rough draft of what I'm going to say today ... I know I'll come back and polish it later but right now I've got to lay down and integrate ... something!

Audrey says:

Howdy'do!

Yes, I'm feeling fine!

The energy is moving once again ... has been for the last several days.

Where to begin? ....

I'm feeling so ... contained ... these days (the last 3 days or so). Contained as in protected, secure. I feel like I have a protective buffer zone around me. Channel material abounds the last few days verifying and validating this new sense I have of myself in the world.

This seems to be an indication that these last several months have been about learning to stay contained within my own energy field, not leaking energy through victim/persecutor programming, duality drama or co-dependency.

I also had a HUGE breakthrough with respect to understanding the issue of abundance.

What I realized is that I've worked very hard at self-validation, self-realization, self-respect, self-love, self-worth, etc. to the point where I've been able to lose my victim/enslavement programming, and pull together and contain all aspects of myself into a coherent whole ... I'm Self-contained. I'm now a fully formed ... vessel ... that is able to receive, contain and hold abundance ... of, from and for the Self ... without my past programming kicking in dictating that I disperse that abundance away from me as quickly as possible ... to others (the programmers of those programs of victimhood and enslavement ... just waiting in the wings to feed off me in order to sustain themselves rather than them doing their own work of redeeming their own Soul and Inner Feminine ... read more about this below).

I understand that we are, in fact, required to build this fully intact and impenetrable container about us, before we can ... and in order to ... generate Sovereign Abundance! The impenetrable container is, in itself, a mechanism with ... parts ... that must be fully built in order to be functional.

The parts of this Sovereign Abundance Magnetizing Mechanism are:

A completely leak-proof and impenetrable outer shell ... the Aura ... coated with steel-strength Light holding the intention that it is impenetrable and leak-proof, with nothing cording in or out of it.

Then there is the still point and center column that is the vacuum space ... a magnetic field ... that houses the Soul and magnetizes to it all that is required by the Lifestream for joyful living.

Of course, there's much more to it ... dah ... but, simply put, that's it! We must build an impenetrable container around us and a still point field within us in order for us to contain, generate, magnetize and manifest Sovereign Abundance.

I get it!

BEFORE, I wasn't ... containing ... owning ... taking ownership of ... being response-able for ... the abundance coming my way ... In fact, I was dispersing it away from me as quickly as possible!

This is a step, then .... taking conscious ownership and responsibility for what it is we create! ...

... To be able to say, This Abundance is mine ... It is for me ... I'm responsible for it and to it ... which leads to yet another step ...

... which is to be filled up to overflowing with the abundance of the Universe. Why?

Because if we're not ... we're leaking (problem with outer container, the Aura - need to continually coat it with steel-strength honey golden, white Light of Source, repelling out any cords coming in and cutting and reconnecting inside any cords we're sending out, and repairing all holes, rips, tears) ... or,  the inner column isn't sufficiently vacuum-ized (need to continually call in the frequency of phi, run it at the still point which is the area between the heart and the solar plexus ... can also run the frequency of phi on the infinity symbol 8 between the heart and the solar plexus and when you feel it take hold, expand it in Kerry O'Connor fashion around the body ... one foot, two feet, four feet, seven feet, twelve feet) ... or, there's an issue with our hook-up to the authentic umbilicus to Source (stray aspects or inner children running amok needing to be rounded-up and plugged in) ... we can't not be filled up to overflowing ...

Because we are GODS! We are the ALL THAT IS! It flows to and through us! We are conduits of it. We are IT! We can't be very effective conduits of the ALL THAT IS while we're leaky and narrow and weak and flimsy and wishy-washy!

AND, this is how we become conscious Co-creators! We understand that we are ... as Lisa Renee says ... God Technology! We are creating mechanisms ... conscious, creating mechanisms ... thus the Co in Co-creator!

WHeeeeeeeeeeee!

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Audrey continues:

As for the government hassling me in attempts to vampire my energy and mine my in-form-ation (rather than beginning to embody the Feminine Energetics now taking hold on the Planet) ... every time I want to go into re-action to this old energy, instead the last day or so, I've been de-particle-izing it ... dissolving Government ... the old Government Archetype ... into a pool of God Light, using the 12D vortex to spin out all discordant energy, bringing the frequency of phi into this purified Government God Light pool, bringing in the photon energy and finally bringing in the Government's Over-Soul to ensoul it, then re-particle-izing or re-forming it back into an ensouled Government Body.

Perhaps this is how Governments around the world are going to change! ... by people dissolving them ... internally ... and re-forming them as ensouled entities!

Please, feel free to share that one with as many others as you can! I just may be on to something!

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Mayan Calendar

Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  7/Reflective
Sacred Sun Sign:  Dog/Oc
Trecena: Seed/Kan

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Audrey says:

I was just sitting here listening to Meg Benedicte and Shannon Fry's May 18, 2009 World Puja radio program (immediately accessible in the "Archive by Host" section of World Puja), when I realized I've moved through the gateway or portal that Lani Calkin's (and others) have been talking about for the last couple of weeks.

It feels like I've entered more fully into the Void ... into the container of the Soul or the Soul as container. I experience this as dwelling mostly in the inner column inside me ... which I've been working to strengthen and build as a zero point or still point field ... which mimics a Black Hole or vacuum or void space ... which is magnetic and pulls into manifestation all the requirements of the Lifestream.

This Soul Sovereignty was already demonstrating itself to me as it pertains to my last corporate contract, I now realize ... a contract which came directly to me rather than through an agency ... and, a contract which I completed - karma-free!  You may recall this is how Unity Money or Non-Karmic Money and supply will manifest for us ... through the workings of the Soul.

I had another short corporate contract which was supposed to begin tomorrow, through an agency, which was canceled by the agency soon after I realized that working through agencies feels like a victim/persecutor energy pattern to me ... which I cleared.

Meg and Shannon's information was just what I needed to hear to confirm and validate my new state of Being.

Seems like I may have needed another push of bulldozer energy to settle me into this new space, however, as The Government has been again stalking me for the last several days. (See also Karen Bishop's April 22, 2009 and May 14, 2009 articles re this energy.)

I can sure tell when I've dropped down into duality because the mind begins shadow boxing with this perceived threat yet, when I elevate my consciousness, I can clearly see there's ONLY me present and, for some reason, I'm creating this perceived threat ... with these two aspects of myself going at each other! ENOUGH ALREADY!

This sure is a stubborn pattern.

I'm going to try a new tactic going forward, and that is to de-particle-ize both these aspects of ego into a pool of God-Light whenever they arise in the mind. I decided to try this tactic as a method of dissolving ego after listening to Meg and Shannon because in order to ascend we must be able to dissolve ego, de-particle-ize and resurrect as something totally different ... re-form ourselves. You'll understand what I'm saying once you've listened to Meg and Shannon's program. Perhaps that's why I've created this ego battle ... as a means of learning this new skill. I'm actually no stranger to de-particle-izing and love the process ... I just never thought to apply it to ego aspects before. (Several years ago I "accidentally" partially shape-shifted into a Wolf! YIKES!)

I'm feeling better already!

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Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  5/Empowerment
Sacred Sun Sign:  Star/Lamat
Trecena: Seed/Kan

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Audrey says:

I'm back! The last few days I've felt ... well ... blank! ... until the other night (when I actually began this post), when I finally got a handle on where I'm at in my process ... which the mind finds very comforting.

What I had been doing the last few days is checking in with myself and asking, Am I open to receiving? Is there any aspect of me that is shut down or flinching or holding back?  Because I've become very conscious that if I want to move forward I have to unflinchingly take responsibility for what I'm creating ... and, that it's okay to make mistakes ... and ... I can mitigate those mistakes by intending a most benevolent outcome for all my creations each morning ... and ... each evening, review what it is I've created that day and cancel out any misqualified energy.

And then, I came upon Geoffrey Hoppe's May 2, 2009 Tobias channel, User Accepts Full Responsibility and, BINGO! I finally found my bearings again, as much of what he speaks of in that article is what I've been experiencing the last several days.

This is, in part, what Geoffrey has to say:

"...Who’s In Charge?

...I want you to start looking at this between now and the end of summer, in particular. Most of the issues – I’d even say all but I know there’ll be some exceptions – that are coming at you right now in your body, issues in your mind, the issues outside of you are about, are you ready to be the creator, the manager, the owner, take responsibility? And that’s what’s happening right now. Yes, it’s amplified somewhat because the world is a little crazy right now. The world is going through its own issues. Humans are going through a momentous change and that’s amplifying your own issues.

...And you know at the end of summer … I don’t want to get into exact dates here, but at the end of summer, for most of you that’s toward the end of August, early September, that you know you’re going to get a call ...

...So you’re going to be getting the call – “Are you ready to go forward?” ...

So the experiences between now and then are all leading up to this, and it’s real simple. It’s so simple, and the question I have, or perhaps the statement I have for you, ... is, do you really want to be a creator? ...

...I’ll give you some of the fine print. You can’t blame anyone else. It won’t work. Matter of fact it will work against you. By pointing the finger at somebody else, you just confuse your own self. You fracture your own energy and it splinters and it goes other places.

When you take that total responsibility as a creator, it’s also learning to accept what you would call failures. They’re not really failures, they’re experiences....

...You’re going to be asked to be the absolute manager of your own life,... A true creator takes absolute responsibility for their life.

Being A Conscious Creator

A true creator takes absolutely no responsibility for anyone else’s life, and that’s also where you’re getting confused. You’re trying to be their co-creator, and you really can’t. Co-creation – true co-creation – only happens between two beings who are absolute conscious creators. Conscious creators. In other words, they’re not just thinking about it, but they know it and they’re doing it.

So what happens is your energy once again gets distracted and fragmented when you’re trying to co-create or, as some would call it, interfere with their lives....

...The challenge I give each of you today is to go beyond the words, to go beyond the platitudes. Are you absolutely ready to be the creator, the manager, the owner, the ticket taker and the janitor and everything else of your life? And I stress this point. I stress this point, because you’ll need this to go forward....

...The Sword in the Stone

This metaphor, this story of King Arthur, can really be reduced to its simplicity, partly true, partly made up. But you know that there was this large rock or, as some would call it, a tombstone, and there was a sword embedded in it. And the one who wanted to be king was the one who could pull the sword out, and many men tried. And they used all of their might and all of their muscle and that sword didn’t budge one bit.

And along came young Arthur, not a particularly strong boy at the time, not known for his cleverness or anything else. Arthur went over to that sword, took a deep breath, remembered his I Am Presence – not somebody else’s I Am Presence, not Saint-Germain’s, not Spirit’s, but his own – he took a deep breath and he easily glided that sword right out of the stone, just like the stone was butter.

The metaphor is simple. It means taking responsibility for himself, ownership for himself. And upon taking ownership of himself, upon accepting that sword of truth, which was also the symbol of taking total responsibility of himself as an owner – body, mind and spirit, taking responsibility for the reality he was creating for himself – then he became king. The metaphor is that he became king of his own castle. He took ownership back of himself, that’s what it was. In taking back ownership of himself, he also found that others called him the king. Others came to him for guidance to be the leader...."

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Audrey continues:

I was relieved to hear this statement in particular from the above article:

A true creator takes absolutely no responsibility for anyone else’s life,

because I was getting confused as to where my responsibilities lie as several people around me are being seriously challenged by various circumstances, and I've felt drawn to assist them but have not been certain if this is what's required of me.

I feel I can stand back now and just be the compassionate Observer and cheer them on.

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Audrey continues:

What's also beginning to happen for me now, as Lisa Renee set out in her recent articles, is that the throat chakra is starting to activate. This is our higher creation center (versus creating from the second chakra). This cannot happen soon enough for me for I feel like I'll crawl out of my skin  if I don't get to create something soon! I don't know how much longer I can take this ... stagnancy ... this utter lack of inspiration to create or do anything!

But looking back, of course I can see how everything is unfolding in perfect Order!

First, I've had to stop creating lower energy creations; 

...become cognizant of what it is I have been creating from that lower energy; 

   ...take responsibility for those creations; 

       ...work out or clear the karma or polarity those creations have caused;

           ...reach a blank or clean state from which to begin creating from the higher energy centers.

Although, I only mentioned it briefly, a huge milestone in getting to this place, is ACCEPTING I'm ... at the moment ... an imperfect creator. I might make mistakes.

In getting to this place of ACCEPTANCE of my imperfection ... has been the realization of SELF-LOVE ... the LOVE I have for my s/Self.

And what led to the LOVE of s/Self has been realizing the importance of FORGIVENESS ... of s/Self and others.

AND, out of this ability to FORGIVE has come COMPASSION for the imperfect creator I am ... and the realization ... that it's okay ... I'm Okay just as I am!

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Audrey asks a question:

Have you noticed the ramped up Fire/Light energy in the body? I'm experiencing this as a fast rise in temperature when I'm clearing issues or working with highly evolved Spiritual Guides.

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Audrey talks money ... again:

I had a flash of insight last night that I'll be exploring in the next little while and that is ... financial indebtedness as Shadow. That sounds lame or even obvious when I put it in print but I sense there's an energy about this aspect of indebtedness that I'm being called to ferret out and ... extract.

What made me think of it in terms of Shadow is that I was realizing that the spectre of financial indebtedness has followed me my ENTIRE life ... like a shadow!

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Audrey ends it:

Anybody else experiencing choppy magnetics today? For the last several days? A sort of on again, off again sensation ... feeling briefly connected and then disconnected? YUCK! Even my electrical power went out for a few hours this morning and my computer is S.T.I.C.K.Y. ... hicupping and stalling ... ENOUGH already!

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Mayan Calendar

Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone:  2/Duality
Sacred Sun Sign:  Serpent/Chicchan
Trecena: Seed/Kan

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Audrey says:

After I signed off yesterday I walked over to the school near my home and voted in our Provincial election and then walked a few more blocks to pick up a few groceries believing I was then going to go for a nice long walk on the seawall. Not so fast. I was not feeling ... myself. I felt ... weak? ... hmmmm ... No. Light?! ... I felt Lighter! ... Quite different in my body. Strange. I decided I would just go home and give myself another day or so to integrate the physical recalibration I went through Monday because it was obvious that whatever had been shifted, was no small thing.

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Audrey shares more:

I tapped into a parallel existence last night. I found myself getting upset with my sister for throwing all the blankets on me (as children, we shared a bed) ... I felt her beside me ... until I became more ... present ... and realized, Oh my god, that was years ago! ... but yet, she was right there, beside me!

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Audrey continues:

More physical stimuli up for me to find a different response to ... electric saws. The building I live in forms an amphitheater with the other buildings around it which causes sound to be amplified. Take that and an inordinate number of men with electric saws who live in the vicinity who love to tinker away at something or other making one hell of a racket, and you have me hanging out the window yelling at them to please have consideration for their neighbours.

I literally feel a shortening of breath, a tensing up ... feeling besieged by something that is out of my control. The same feelings of being disrespected and disregarded and helpless ... at the mercy of others ... comes up as has been the case with the physical stimuli of the smell of burning marijuana jarring me awake in the middle of the night.

I'm sitting here with that noise right now ... drawing in and pouring out love to that particular stimuli in order to interrupt my habitual response to it. I'm also hearing to consciously work with the 12D vortex to spin out feelings of victimhood.

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Mayan Calendar

Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone: 12/Understanding
Sacred Sun Sign: Wind/Ik
Trecena: Monkey/Chuen

(also, and this)

Plus:

Shadow Aspect and Transformation Offered

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Progress in Manifesting Conscious Co-Creations:

March 16, 2009: Consciously experienced the Blank Slate state and reason for it ... installation of Soul Hologram.
March 6, 2009: One year anniversary of enSoulment process. Noticed addiction matrix removed from emotional body. Noticed Hands of Light.
March 1, 2009: Heard inner voice telling me that the reason each month seemed to bring yet another financial crisis was because I was being taught that even in the direrest of circumstances (that I could think to create for myself) I COULD take care of myself, and how many more months and financial crises did I have to create before I learned the lesson?! EUREKA!
February 3, 2009: Experience the Soul emanating from the center of my chest.
January 6, 2009: Experienced the SHIFT into the NEW existence.
December 21, 2008: Claimed my inner Businessman and integrated Respect for Money and importance of Value.
November 30, 2008: Everything is within the Love. Love has everything within it.
November 24, 2008: Realized LOVE is the Power of creation.
...from beginning (March 6, 2008)

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Audrey says:

Well I made it through my corporate contract karma-free this time ... That's what it feels like ... like I left that situation with a clean slate ... a blank slate! Woohoo!

Not so lucky with the marijuana smoking neighbour, however ... as he again made his presence known in the middle of the night. The good news, however, is that the smell of marijuana is losing its charge ... and last night, I just rolled over and said to myself, "No way is this guy going to derail my ascension ... I'll just forget about him." I then went back to sleep ....

... Not so fast, however. In the ascension process we don't get to "forget" about anything that is yet unresolved. We don't get to bury ANYTHING ...

... and so this morning as I was cleaning my kitchen and preparing my latte, I realized ... okay ... several things:

Firstly, I'm being triggered physically into an emotional response ... a habitual response ... which is one of anger and frustration.

Secondly, as previously stated, the emotional charge to the physical stimuli isn't as strong as it used to be because of the work I did on this situation the other day.

Thirdly, I realized my "falling in love" with the guy once I'd discovered he's my shadow matrix-buster was me paying lip service to the situation ... and, fourthly ...

I need to change ... and feel it will be EASY to change (if you can believe it) ... my habitual emotional response to the physical trigger of the smell of burning marijuana waking me up in the middle of the night ... to one of a pouring out of love to this guy ... in a heartfelt, conscious manner ... rather than just mentally understanding that that is what is required (realizing that understanding the solution and enacting it are two different things).

I can't begin to tell you how empowering it is to finally feel like I'm getting the emotional/pain body in hand ... that its not running my life amok with its habitual responses to things so much anymore.

I believe we've mostly accomplished what Lisa Renee wrote about in her April 2009 article, The Still Point, and which others of my most enlightened sources are also speaking about as a Big Shift having recently occurred, and that is, as Lisa put it:

When the being has surrendered to divine will, the 3rd layer of the solar plexus expands greatly and links with the 5th layer. The 3rd layer of the particle intelligence that was the solar plexus body is then recoded to a higher octave of intelligence and expanded. Then the consciousness becomes capable to “speak as divine will” and learns how to apply divine will to action and speech. (This is being the Will to Good, or the Will to God) The mental body is then greatly expanded within the aura, and more divine intelligence fields and spiritual links are potentially accessed.

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May 12, 2009 ... Audrey continues on

I spent yesterday ... midpoint of the 6th Day of the Mayan Calendar ... in bed while my physical body was being renovated. I awoke with a pounding headache and the day went downhill from there. I can't say I was surprised by this physical recalibration as, blessedly, I was ascension-symptom-free during my corporate contract and knew that the physical would need to catch up at some point to all the energetic downloads I continued to receive during that time. So I didn't begrudge the time spent laid up yesterday.

Although most of the discomfort was in the head, at one point during the day I felt my solar plexus being worked on and thought ... Ah huh! ... The solar plexus is still being expanded to the 5th layer or 5th dimension as Lisa speaks about above.

I'm feeling a little discombobulated today but not nearly as much as in times past when I've undergone reconstruction ... I'm also adjusting to being back in my bubble of reality after my sojourn into the 3D corporate world.

Who am I now? I ask myself. What's changed?

Nothing profound to report there.

I continue to work with my marijuana smoking neighbour ... Bless his soul.

He's making his presence known almost nightly, again. I have to stop myself from flying into a panic at times .... What am I missing about this situation? Maybe I don't have the power to change it! YIKES! But then last night I had a dream ... Thank God (to let me know I'm on the right track) ... In my dream I disarmed a little boy with a knife who was attacking people on the bus we were both traveling on. I tied him to his seat as that was the only way he was going to sit still and remain harmless to others, and talked to him ... showing him love and compassion. Whee! I feel this is a breakthrough!

And, to be very honest, I've found arising in me other instances of sarcasm and judgment and anger at other boy-men ... You know, those boys disguised as men ... My father was one ... and the havock he wrought left deep wounds and lots of anger, obviously still present.

But ... hey...YEH! Its up to be healed ... and I feel I have the inner strength and confidence to see it through.

I'm also once again turning my attention to the money question ... Yes, the ongoing saga. I wish more people going through the ascension process would speak up about it, and share their experience of money in their lives. Am I the only one in financial debt wondering how on earth THAT's going to be resolved as we move into New Earth? Maybe I am, for all I know.

So while I'm at it I might as well put out my one bitch about other ascension leaders ... why are so few sharing their personal story? The channels are lovely and very much appreciated but what's happening in your life? How is life unfolding for you in the ascension process?

There. Done.

Here's one of my money updates. My mother is to have surgery in June and I told her sometime back ... when I was more financially solvent ... I would be happy to nurse her through her convalescence ... which financially now just is not feasible. But somewhere along the line I decided I would ask her to pay me for my nursing services ... to cover my living expenses while I'm with her ... I did and she readily agreed. No fuss, no bother. Yeh!

In case you missed the significance of this ... well ... its on several fronts. First, asking ... was significant ... this was an acknowledgment and a statement of my worth, in many respects. Secondly, asking my mother was significant ... because aren't you supposed to sacrifice to give to those you love (another myth dispelled) ... and, besides, I had nothing left to sacrifice! Thirdly, realizing that asking for an energy exchange from her was appropriate, was also significant.

In the past, I would have made up some excuse as to why I couldn't be there for her or would have gone into debt to pay the cost for being with her, so embarrassed would I have been by my lack of money. Instead, I was absolutely truthful with her and we both benefited greatly from it. I get to be with her ... which I gladly look forward to ... and she gets me to nurse her through her convalescence.

As to paying off my financial debt ... to me this seems like it should resolve itself easily for I did consciously go into debt to clear up all the old patterns and beliefs I (and the Planet) had about debt ... and it never crossed my mind that I would be saddled with it for very long ... So, what's the way out of it? ... The karma-free way out of it, I might add.

Several things come up when I think about it.

Firstly, receiving. I realized I was not fully opening up to receiving for fear of what I would receive! In other words, I realize I'm an imperfect creator and have been afraid of what's going to come at me should I fully open up to receive. Lots of fear and guilt here. Also an inner child who needed reclaiming and redemption.

I forgive myself for all my imperfect creations, and am willing to take responsibility for them as they show up in my life. I love myself even though my creations may be imperfect.

So, as stated in my little prayer above, having compassion and forgiveness for myself for my mis-takes in creation is very freeing. Being willing to acknowledge and take responsibility for my miscreations is what the inner child needed to be redeemed for ... she, feeling guilty and bad about some things she's believed and thought. And then realizing that LOVE is what is called for to neutralize it all. Also, ACCEPTING ... I'm in financial debt ... It makes me uncomfortable. It's still binding. There is still a polarity playing itself out ... the opposite of being bound and indebted is freedom.

So when I take a giant step back from this situation I realize ... Yesterday my authentic umbilicus to Source was still being adjusted ... so energetically, things perhaps are still aligning themselves. We (for I believe there is more than just me out there) were disconnected from our usual money making sources but still had to have money to live on (in my reality, anyway) which means that many of us Lightworkers (does the title give us some kind of free pass or specialty treatment) are in the same boat.

How is this financial mess going to resolve itself? I don't yet know. I do know it will come from the Soul.

"Stay contained within yourself. Do not go outside yourself for anything," I hear Meg Benedicte's voice booming through me.

What I've been doing, in the meantime, is running a figure 8 of Light and the frequency of phi through my authentic umbilicus between myself and the Abundant Universe as a way of entraining myself to go to Source (mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually) when the question of abundance arises.

There, now you're all caught up in what's happening in my ascension process.

Until later.

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Mayan Calendar

Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone: 11/Resolution
Sacred Sun Sign: Crocodile/Imix
Trecena: Monkey/Chuen

(also, and this)

Plus:

Shadow Aspect and Transformation Offered

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Progress in Manifesting Conscious Co-Creations:

March 16, 2009: Consciously experienced the Blank Slate state and reason for it ... installation of Soul Hologram.
March 6, 2009: One year anniversary of enSoulment process. Noticed addiction matrix removed from emotional body. Noticed Hands of Light.
March 1, 2009: Heard inner voice telling me that the reason each month seemed to bring yet another financial crisis was because I was being taught that even in the direrest of circumstances (that I could think to create for myself) I COULD take care of myself, and how many more months and financial crises did I have to create before I learned the lesson?! EUREKA!
February 3, 2009: Experience the Soul emanating from the center of my chest.
January 6, 2009: Experienced the SHIFT into the NEW existence.
December 21, 2008: Claimed my inner Businessman and integrated Respect for Money and importance of Value.
November 30, 2008: Everything is within the Love. Love has everything within it.
November 24, 2008: Realized LOVE is the Power of creation.
...from beginning (March 6, 2008)

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Audrey says:

Still working in the salt mines, so to speak. This coming week is my last of this particular corporate contract.

Since my last post, the government has backed off, and I've not seen hide nor hair of them.

My marijuana smoking neighbour, however, is acting up again. I was racking my brains the other morning ... after tearing up several very irate notes to the landlord (drama and dropping down into duality)  ... as to how on earth I was going to reconcile this situation (marijuana smoke pouring in through my windows in the middle of the night, waking me up) ... and how was I ever going to find it in myself to love this guy ... Love being the ONLY real solution ... when at my worst all I want to do is squish his little head ... when I happened upon Meg Benedicte's May Newsletter, Healing the Shadow. BINGO! (Also see her blog on Swine Flu.)

When I looked at this fellow, again, from that perspective ... as a shadow aspect of myself ... I immediately fell in love with him ... Okay, that may be a weeee bit of an exaggeration but I realized OMYGOD ... this guy is my shadow matrix-buster! With his anti-social, disrespectful, destructive behaviour, his goal is clearly the same as mine ... to bust free of the system ... bust free of conditioned societal constraints!

So I took this destructive, shadow matrix-buster of mine through Meg Benedicte's umbilicus hook-up to Source process (as given to us in her March 2, 2009 World Puja program) so that his impotency and destructive behaviour could be replaced with connection to Source and true empowerment. I immediately felt my chest fill with warmth ... of the physical variety! We'll see if I've finally gotten back all fragments of mysef this neighbour's being working so hard to mirror to me.

Gotta love those mirrors as the quickest way to evolve ... once, of course, we finally gain control of our emotional bodies and quit projecting our uglies onto them ... I love what I just wrote as I realize that the uglies we project onto others is an indication of us still having the old duality hologram downloaded in our projector (pineal), still projecting that as our reality outward thus still experiencing and living it.

So it would seem that by us no longer reacting to our projections but instead staying contained within ourselves to work out what's going on internally, we are learning to be Sovereign Beings ... That is, we KNOW there is nothing but us being reflected back to us in our world ... and this makes space, with the requisit expansion of consciousness, for more and more of the Soul hologram to come through and be projected into our world instead ... the Self that does love everyone, who does seek higher solutions, and who wants peace above all else ... That's what we're going to begin seeing and experiencing reflected back to us!

I'M READY ALREADY ... I GET IT! ... BRING IT ON!

I can see how this is actually going to be FUN once our Soul hologram is fully in place and we iron out all the kinks!

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Mayan Calendar

Galactic Cycle
This cycle is about mastering ethics.

We are in the 6th Day of the Galactic Cycle.
Th 6th Day lasts from Nov. 13, 2008 - Nov. 7, 2009
(6th Day: Consciousness surpasses technology)

Today attune to:

Galactic Tone: 2/Duality
Sacred Sun Sign: Road/Eb
Trecena: Monkey/Chuen

(also, and this)

Plus:

Shadow Aspect and Transformation Offered

****

Progress in Manifesting Conscious Co-Creations:

March 16, 2009: Consciously experienced the Blank Slate state and reason for it ... installation of Soul Hologram.
March 6, 2009: One year anniversary of enSoulment process. Noticed addiction matrix removed from emotional body. Noticed Hands of Light.
March 1, 2009: Heard inner voice telling me that the reason each month seemed to bring yet another financial crisis was because I was being taught that even in the direrest of circumstances (that I could think to create for myself) I COULD take care of myself, and how many more months and financial crises did I have to create before I learned the lesson?! EUREKA!
February 3, 2009: Experience the Soul emanating from the center of my chest.
January 6, 2009: Experienced the SHIFT into the NEW existence.
December 21, 2008: Claimed my inner Businessman and integrated Respect for Money and importance of Value.
November 30, 2008: Everything is within the Love. Love has everything within it.
November 24, 2008: Realized LOVE is the Power of creation.
...from beginning (March 6, 2008)

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