FROM HEAD TO HEART

"The following discourse occurred with Adamus Saint-Germain on January 14, 2009. I feel it will be helpful to briefly explain my personal circumstances, as they are referred to by Adamus several times. So, as you read, I will interject, with explanations within parenthesis, what he is referring to in his comments, so the information might be more universal. This discourse directly relates to the information shared with me by Zebulon, the following day. You will find the Zebulon channeling following this one from our beloved Adamus.

Here we are, you are, weeks away now from your past, that was months away from your past, and you are sitting in that supposed past, yet, in a very new way. Do you see this? It is beautiful, is it not? In many ways it all seems the same, and yet, it is very, very. (Here he refers to the fact that 7 months ago, I left my home and marriage of 23 years, and after the recent separation from Jeshua, Ambika and Michaelena, I have returned here for the first time, to stay until Jeshua and Ambika’s release, per Adamus’s advice.)

The time has come to advance, to move forward in what is yet another new dimension of your life, yet to be known, yet to be experienced, digested, analyzed, critiqued, all of these things that you do. You have been correct, that in your past you keep getting disconnected every time a connection is made, and there is very good reason for this. (Here he refers to our being uprooted every time we seem to finally be in a place where we can settle, make a home.)

You must move beyond connections. The very notion of a connection is devastating to your process right now, as it stops fluidity and prohibits your experiencing cosmic time. This is why I kept using the word past. You wondered, why is Adamus continuing to mention the past? There no longer is a past, but, there is as long as you recreate your existence to include it. There is as long as you choose to see it in all the associations you make.

Notice with yourself, in the last few days, how much you have been effected by experiencing your present through past circumstances, simply by comparing this present to your past, and instead of seeing it presently, as something new, never experienced… due to your long history of what currently surrounds you, past associations are made and this becomes what you see, and then, on several levels, what you experience. You started to go back into feeling lonely, which you are not. That is a lie the mind tells you. Then you start to feel afraid things will never change, refusing to see just how much has changed, great changes, monumental changes, yet, there you sit beginning to fall back into old patterns of beliefs and experience. Why? Just because of associations to the past based on current perceived similarities within your environment and relationships.

Rather than seeing, focusing on the changes, the mind is playing with you, showing you only that which seems to be the same. Whispering to you nothing ever really changed. This is simply not true. You have changed greatly. The roles you play for each other have changed greatly. You have, although briefly, even considered the possibility of reviving your marital life you just walked away from, even though you do not truly wish for this. Why? It is only fear, my dear, just fear.

You are still within that environment, those personal relationships, and the vibrational patterns all of this creates. What else can this create for you, but, more of the same, even though so many changes have occurred when you were out of that vibrational field? When you walk back into it, you get pulled back in, or you remain uncomfortable, incompatible with what appears to surround you. This is one of the major holds on all humans. You have done extremely well, staying as long as you have before feeling these effects. What you have experienced will be so very valuable to others, as you teach the necessity for change, drastic change, to let go of mind, to give yourselves the opportunity to expand beyond your limited vibrational environments of your present, becoming hopefully, your past.

Let me put it this way, there you are, in a place, a situation where you experienced very little change for a very long time. You grew uncomfortable with its predictability, or, I should say, the mind did. But, your spirit grew bored with so little change. Yes, of course you experienced great growth there, but the time came to really let the mind go. But, how can you truly do this if you do not first COMPLETELY understand how it attacks you, savagely, when you reach out to change.

Fear, fear, and more fear. So, here you sit, having had what you termed “the time of your life”, actually considering the validity of the thoughts that perhaps you were dropped back into your previous environment to make some good of it. Or, that you must let all that you have recently experienced go, as it was just too fantastic, too good to be true, too good to hold on to, wondering if you are mentally unstable. Listen well now, you are not unstable, unless…a big unless here, you choose to continue this type of thinking. This must be stopped. You are only on vacation there, temporarily, and for many very, very good reasons. Some of these you know, some you have yet to realize, and some are being revealed to you right now.

Over the last few days, all of this began to come up for you. You began to lose hope you might be able to continue with the life you now find yourself living, or wondering if it is even wise to do so. Why? I am going to tell you, and this is true for everyone afraid to step out of their present environment where they are truly miserable, into something they will find as you did, beyond their wildest expectations.

This is the key. You are so accustomed to moving into something with expectation. This allows the mind to feel comfortable. And, rarely does expectation become realized, at least as you have expected it. The key… let go of expectation. This makes the mind bloody uncomfortable and tells you all the terrible problems you might experience. So, most simply stay in their chair in front of the tv or book or food or whatever substitutes they have found to quiet their SOUL, that’s right, these are substitutes for Spirit.

There is no substitute now that is going to work, not any longer. That is what occurred on 1/11. The energy will no longer support using substitutes for Spirit. Do you understand? So, what you have been experiencing is this. No, you have not really been doing much of this, but to the extent you have, you no longer feel relief as you did in the past, right? I know this is true, for I have felt it too, through you. Your dissatisfaction began to grow into fear. What will I do? You felt isolated; you felt you could hardly breathe. You felt you were losing your mind. What has occurred is that your Spirit is now operating from a perspective of so much greater importance, or should I say, with a much louder voice, and this is creating an unbalanced condition with the mind.

I know you have been operating from a place of Spirit for awhile now, much more so than most, yet, when placed back in an environment with strong past associations, you began to feel unbalanced, quite strongly, but it took awhile. Why? It is because it took awhile to become truly familiar with this environment again. The more familiar this environment became, the more the mind took over, without you even really noticing. Your experience, my dear, is something you can now teach so much more effectively.

This time when you leave, and leave you will…don’t worry, you will leave all of that behind, but this time by choice. (Here Adamus is referring to the fact that I left home for only a week to attend a workshop, but unexpectedly decided not to return, this was 7 months ago.) Before, you were unprepared for leaving, had not considered leaving, at least not then, not that way. There were no expectations of leaving, therefore, no expectations of the future, and look at the beauty you experienced. Look at the dreams that came true, that you never consciously created. These dreams were created by the heart, not the mind. Do you follow? So, I wish to caution you, this time as you leave, go in the same way, no expectations…NONE! None about Pioneers College, none about evolving, none about Jeshua, Ambika, or Michaelena…NONE!

It is truly a blank slate and its ONLY purpose is experience, expression of Self. Do you see? This is the format to assist all those ready to make a change, but finding it nearly impossible, as they will say, “I am not prepared, I do not have enough money, I still need to care for ….children, older parents, pets, etc”. Their hearts are in the right place within the old paradigm, but changes must be made or their suffering will be even greater if they wait, put it off. This can be most helpful to those sitting on the fence, and, many, too many, are afraid to make these necessary changes. It’s time for a greater number to fall in. The numbers need to be greater for greater evidence of change to occur.

So, digest all of this first, and then we will continue. You are advised to pay particular attention to all the details in how these past associations have played out in your own life, especially in the last few weeks. Start to see their effect on you everywhere you can. This is how you move into a blank state with ease and grace and confidence. This is the key, to eliminate past associations. I know where you are now, how you are living now, is not how you wish to live, but you have made the best of it. There were gifts to be discovered there, to be sure, but also traps. You knew this going in. You very successfully avoided these traps for awhile. You did very well here, but we knew eventually the traps would get you in the end; these associations would pull you down. This is true for anyone, even me, if in human form. This is the way it works. Now you know, from firsthand AWARENESS.

In our next discussion I will go into how past associations attack awareness and begin to wear it."

January 14, 2009
The Blank Slate
Copyright Faye Woodward|Adamus Saint-Germain

See also follow-up article, First Step - Moving Into Non-Vibration

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